I don't know about you, but when I think of having a baby, I cry. It is not rocket science, but it is not easy! I have 4 beautiful babies, whom I had with my ex-husband. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 6 months now. Every month, I chart, temp and take ovulation tests. Every month I get those beautiful red cross-hairs on my chart that tell me I ovulated. That dreaded two week wait goes by and I take a test and it’s negative. Tears flow down my face and Mother Nature shows. This month WILL be different. Why? Because I refuse to temp. I refuse to chart or anything. I am just going to relax and let it happen. February IS MY MONTH! I have cried, screamed and talked about how it is not fair. I know it will not make things better, but sometimes it feels good to vent. My husband deserves to be a father. He wants a baby of his own so bad. I want to be able to give it to him! I know on average that only 20% of couples conceive in a month. It seems like everyone around me is getting pregnant. Or everyone in the store has a big pregnant belly! That’s okay. It will be my turn again soon.