Mother nature has came 5 days early. This caught me completely off guard. I don't understand why I cannot have a baby. I have 4 of my own from my previous marriage and I just want to give my husband one of his own! This is not fair at all. I have researched and researched. It is really hitting home that I have secondary infertility! :(! WHY ME?! Why can I not give my husband a child of his own?! We are moving on to month 9 now. It is going to be a long road but I refuse to give up!