It has been three months since our loss. We were told we would try again when we were ready. We have been ready and I haven't gotten pregnant yet. I do think that I was stressing myself out. It took a LONG time to conceive Aubrey. I shared my Trying To Conceive ups & downs with you all for a long time before we found out we were pregnant with Aubrey. We are not charting or temping. I did want to buy these ovulation tests to see if I am even ovulating at all since our loss. Well, It looks like I am because I had a surge today. This means I can ovulate 24-72 hours after I get a positive. Having a rainbow baby would mean a ton. IF it happened this cycle I would be due around Aubrey's birthday. It would be so bittersweet. Some people ask all the time what a rainbow baby is!
A "rainbow baby" is a baby that is born following a miscarriage or still birth. In the real world, a beautiful and bright rainbow follows a storm and gives hope of things getting better. The rainbow is more appreciated having just experienced the storm in comparison. The storm (pregnancy loss) has already happened and nothing can change that experience. Storm-clouds might still be overhead as the family continue to cope with the loss, but something colourful and bright has emerged from the darkness and misery. So sweet isn't it?
I have had 23 days cycles since having Aubrey. It is so odd because the normal text book cycle is 28 days. Since I got my positive ovulation test, it means that I am ovulating on cycle day 10 rather than the typical 14 like most women. We promised not to make trying to have a baby a chore so this will be the only time I used ovulation tests. I just wanted to see if I am even ovulating at all because having a baby DOES change your cycles completely! I am just writing this to share that I will be yet again sharing the ups and downs of trying to conceive. Everyone is hopeful that it will happen almost immediately but we do not live in a perfect world and my body will allow it to happen when it is ready. I do want to mention that it will be a surprise when it does happen!
Were you aware of the term Rainbow Baby before reading my post? =)