Wednesday, April 17, 2013

It has been a week today.

It has been a week today since we said hello and goodbye to our princess. We miss her so much. Every minute- second of the day she is on my mind. I am trying to recover physically and mentally. I know it will take time but I honestly feel like my world has crashed down completely.
Daddy bought Mommy an urn necklace for you princess! I am wearing it right now with some of your ashes. But you already know that since you are looking down on us. <3
Aubreys urn came today in the mail as well. We already put her ashes in it. It is so beautiful. Her nana and Pa bought it!
It is so perfect and beautiful!! It came out better than we had imagined!
I miss her so much. As you can tell I re-done my header in honor of Aubrey. I want to raise awareness for Anencephaly. My daughter came into this world with this condition for a reason. Raising awareness is only fair for her =]! I hate that all of this happened and I feel like I am losing my mind. Talking about her helps..I know that it is not going to make things better. I am worried for my husband. He seems so calm but I can tell when I look in his eyes he is not okay. I love the bond that we have. I told him that if I had even doubted his love for me that after this..I will never again. 
My husband is an amazing and awesome person. I cannot thank him enough for being here for me like he has. Wiping my tears away at night and cuddling me when I need him the most is just amazing. The crying comes into waves..mainly at night and when I eat because that is when she was always active.

I wanted to thank all of my readers for the support that you all have given me. Thank you for your kind words! It means a ton! I will still be blogging. I need to do this to keep things off of my mind. If i don't do anything..I will just go crazy sitting there with things running through my head. I found an idea that I want to do but I have to try it and see if it works before I announce =]! I am trying my hardest to stay positive. Until next time...xoxo

5 comments:

  1. There are no words to describe how precious your words are today. Just know that Aubrey's Nana loves you. It was an honor for us to get the urn for our precious grand daughter and her precious parents. Pa and I love you, Jon and Aubrey.

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  2. What a beautiful necklace <3

    Crumpya

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  3. Your family is so inspiring! I couldn't imagine pulling through as well as you are. Thank you for sharing your story and raising awareness!

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  4. God bless you both, and your sweet little angel <3

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  5. What a beautiful memorial to your angel baby. Thinking of you.

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