One Month Already. Wow.

It has already been one month since we lost our sweet babygirl. ONE MONTH! Where has time gone already? Did I sleep the days away? Countless nights of sobbing myself to sleep while holding her blanket that still smells like her.

I had a breakdown tonight, The doc prescribed me something for the breakdowns and anxiety attacks and THANKFULLY it calmed me a BIT. I got out the box the hospital gave us and got out her things. I enjoy looking at them. 

I can't wait to receive her "birth certificate" in the mail..She may have been stillborn but she was still born and she is still a tiny little person. Reminds me of that quote from Horton Hears A Who. "A person's a person no matter how small"

Aubrey was so tiny. Ah I wish I could share all of her picture but to protect her from cruel people  ( NOT my readers but random people on the internet) that is not going to happen.

Anyways back to her things in her memory box. I kept her cord stump. I dried it out and put it into a small baggie and put it in her box. I also kept the gown she was in and every pregnancy test that I took with her pregnancy. They even gave me a crib card. So sweet!

I kept all of my arm bands from the labor stay as well. I wanted to keep everything from that day. I am sure there are other things that I didn't even list as well. I hope to buy a corner shelf for the living room to make Aubreys memorial area. I am not liking her stuff cluttered on the table beside the couch. =( I want to add more to it. 

Well that is all for now. Thank you for reading.